1st day in sch

haha.. today is my 1st day in Kranji Pri Sch (KPS)..

wake up early to prepare myself.. when i reach the lrt station i saw my classmate Wang Yun frm nie.. she oso doing morning shift.. haha she meeting nicole at the next lrt station (they 2 very gd lo at least posted to the same sch.. but nv mind, i made new friends too.. they r nice pple).. so the 3 of us ended up going to sch together, 2 of them r posted to De Lalle Salle Pri.. anyway when we reach cck mrt, i saw my sec sch friend wei jie.. he is in ns now, but he seem shock to c me ard so early in the morning.. din chat up cos i was with my friends...

i reach sch before 7am.. i thought it was still very early lo... but i was wrong man... the students r damn early before me.. i walk past the canteen to go to the general office then i saw alot of students in the canteen eating breakfast.. i was totally impressed.. how can they wake up so early in the morning n run abt in the sch like nthing.. lol.. then the funny thing is that when i walk pass the crowd of students, they were all looking at me as though im an exhibit.. lol..

anyway, after that my CT told me today dun need to observe cos she needs to do some housekeeping.. so i was free after flag raising... so i went canteen for a break with another trainee teacher Esther... haha i was buying my food then i walk off without taking my change or something.. then the canteen vendor was like shouting "lao shi lao shi" (teacher teacher).. haha cos i 1st day in sch mah plus i nt used to pple calling me lao shi so i totally ignored the aunty, thinking that she is calling another person... when i finally turn round, then i realise that all the while she is calling me.. haha.. so funny at that moment lo.. lol..

then my CT ask me to join her P6 class jus to observe her lesson lo so i gladly follow along.. haha again a grp of students greet me "chen lao shi".. i was like WTH.. lol.. feel so uneasy with the term "chen lao shi".. observing her lesson was fun n i jotted down notes on how she teaches n her classroom management.. she is a very kind n helpful teacher, she always come over to me n explain why she does certain things.. painting a clearer picture for me...

then the rest of the time i jus slack at the rm for trainee teachers... cos 1st day mah all teachers busy to clear stuff from last term.. so today is an easy n joyful day.. nt much work..

im jus excited over the practicum thingy.. haha..

delighted... thank u

i was waiting for my surprise this morning, cos marg ask me to b around at hm frm 9am to 1pm... well i knew that something is happening behind my back n its gona b a surprise... i "torture" marg to tell me more things.. she said is a delievery so i haf to b hm to sign it.. haha both marg n glen r involve in this surprise.. thanks for everything both of u do.. im really very touched..

the delievery came at ard nearing 2pm.. i got flowers frm both of them.. its very nicely wrapped up n very sweet looking.. im more than happy to sign it when it arrive.. haha.. although it is not the 1st time im receiving flowers, but the joy n happiness for this time round is jus more than any other time.. its really the thought that counts.. oh.. im jus so touched... thanks...

taken a few pics:

tis is how the flower looks like




















frm bird's eye view















then i went crazy over taking pics with the flower.. cos im a super zi lian kuang.. remember? haha...



























Oh ya.. this is the card attached to the flower...




















a million thanks again to marg n glen.. thanks for watever u haf done...

P/S: i took a total of 43 pics man! haha all is my zi lian pic.. if u think u wan to c somemore can msn me.. haha... im going crazy.. lol.. =P

that will b all for today.. tmr is a new start for me.. my 1st day of practicum.. i will post more of my happenings in sch...

Staff meeting @KPS

yo yo yo!! as u may noe already, im posted to Kranji Pri Sch for Teaching assistantship (TA)... very excited n nervous abt it.. cant imagine wat it will be like for me to b in sch... praying hard that the pple there r nice souls, hopefully no office politics... Human relations r very impt...

for this week alone, i went to KPS on 3 occasions.

Mon, 18 June: Went to meet my SCM (supervisor in sch).. He is a nice gentleman but din gif much instructions for us as the timetable n CTs are nt yet finalised... so the trip is in a sense, "wasted" but then i get to meet the pple in general office n "tour" ard the environment.. im still happy..

Thurs, 21 June: Went for Resource Development meeting with my department. thinking that i may get to see my HOD n CT.. but then its still nt finalise.. very anxious nw lo.. haha.. chit chat with the teachers in the chi dept... they r friendly pple.. feel very nice... hoping to get better with them in future.. a big family waiting for me...

Fri, 22 June: Staff meeting! this is when i get to see the principal, vice principal, and all other teachers frm the other departments... the meeting was a long one, 9am to 12pm... listening to all those agenda, feel so sleepy but cant doze off or stare in the blank, mus at least gif some respect to the speaker.. lol...

so as for today, i finally get my timetable.. i will nt be doing "floating" (a technical term lah, anyway it roughly means coming to sch late in the morning n end early in the afternoon)... im in the morning session!! which means i haf to b in sch by latest 7.10am, best is 7am in the morning!!!!! its so damn early man! i need to slp early, wake up early...

i will end work ard 1pm, but cant always go hm so early lah will paiseh one so mus stick ard til 2 to 3+ lo.. see wat i can help with other teachers...
lol i end work so early, all my friends either in sch or at work, which means even when im free i cant jio them out.. when they r off work, im tired or even going to slp so i can wake up early the next day... thats so disheartening.. =(
but then, im still excited abt going to sch.. its my first time.. lol..

anyway i will be attached to 2 CTs (my mentors) teaching P3 n P4 respectively, so i will observe wat they do in class n stuff lidat... frm our conversations, can tell that they r very nice pple...
haha u may think that every1 is nice here nice there, u so naive... lol mayb im, but i really feel they r sincere n nice.. i go to sch with a humble me, willingness to learn things n do things, i can say when im in KPS im very sincere to every1.. of cos i cant please every1 but i will try to b at peace with them...

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went over to lot1 after my meeting @ KPS... meet up with marg for lunch n pool..

we played with a grp of guys frm another table (3 guys.. haha but only 1 look cute).. the best looking n cutest of the grp plays very well, we only got 50-50 chance in winning him.. but this is the kind of joy n fulfilment u get when playing with an expert.. the best part is that he is YOUNGER than us!! lol only 18 k.. jus a JC boy.. nt like us.. feel so old liao...

18, young, cute, handsome, good-looking, well mannered... lol.. to put a term on him i will only say young boy, nt even young man lo.. think he is the kind who can attract alot of gals attention, a macho man-to-be.. haha ok lah fine i admit, at least he did attract my attention... lol with his pool skills he is perfect! however, i dun wan guys younger than me.. too bad.. lol.. =P

Random Photos

torture..

haha it seems like im nt as strong as i think (mentally n physically).. feel very sick.. think its heat stroke... feeling a bit giddy, vomitted and im a bit feverish..

think i very long never expose to hot scorching sun le thats why like that.. feeling hot n cold.. am i going to fall soon?

i decide to go buy a pendent once i recover.. as a memory.. ok i know alot of pple out there will think im nt toking sense.. nvm.. i know wat i wanted.. i wan something that will remind me wat happen..

alot of things haf been happening.. mum falling sick (back pain), my mood swings..
things i haf seen are nt wat i thought it sld be, perhaps im demanding or im jus stubborn..

mayb its jus a game of win or lose, if u could only understand me, things may jus turn out better.. u r so close to winning.. but a twist of events happen.. guess life is jus like that.. im left speechless n alone, guess i really nt someone who could read a person well.. im slow but i guess its good in a sense too.. wat i haf fear turns out to b an ironic truth.. sld i thank god for watever i see?

im a super 自恋狂!!!

wahaha.. nwadays my fave activity to kill boredom is taking pics with my digital cam n hp cam... haha.. my mum even say she thinks that i bought a digital cam is jus for me to "zi lian".. lol..

well today when i wake up, i suddenly feel like playing with my cam.. so i took my hp cam to take my natural looking face (without make-up)... haha plus i din even wash my face yet (yucks im dirty!)... im into a self-denial of nt wanting to wake up so i jus lied on my bed n play with my cam (gosh, this sounds so censored haha)...
























gosh.. i look so yucky when i jus wake up.. dark circles frm my late nite slping...

卫兰_Janice

my friends, if u like the background song from my blog, i shall tell u who the singer is........ she is 卫兰 (Janice), she is frm HK..

really love her songs, both eng or canto.. cos i could understand cantanese, i could really feel the feelings she put into the songs, making the songs "alive"... personally i feel she is better than sun yan zi, jolin, elva.. etc singers... its a very different feeling when u hear her songs compare to the pop singers, its like when u hear it u could portray a picture inside ur brain, ur emotions will be tied closely with her voice...

when i hear the songs alone, i feel very emotional.. well i can say that i can control my emotions quite well but upon listening to her songs, i really "surrender".. its like i can feel tears in my eyes.. she is cool man..

Lastly and most importantly, i mus say a great THANK YOU to my great friend Glen... he stays up late to help me download her songs... thanks!!

movie: Ocean's 13

went out today with my friend to watch Ocean's 13... the show quite interesting n oso entertaining at parts.. think the plot this time round oso nt bad.. quite worth while to go watch...

after movie went to the DFS (opp Far East Plaza) Soup Restaurant for dinner... the soup is nice.. princess piglet love to drink soup de (last time my mummy used to make soup for me)... the other dishes oso nt bad...

im going to facial with fangyi on tues!! haha i wan to b a pretty princess piglet.. then july i will go rebond my hair as a birthday present for myself... im starting to countdown for my birthday!! yippie....

Touching Story?!

i was reading my friend Michelle's blog entry...

to my dear friend Michelle: i know that u may b facing some problems in ur relationship, but i trust that u n ur partner can go through this together, wishing u eternal happiness... P/S:if u need someone to talk to, feel free to find me, any day any time...


Below is the story i read frm Michelle's blog:

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When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter>how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry.. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face. On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The>visualization of Dew became vague. On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

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when i first read, i feel that its very touching. but when i come to think of it, i feel that i belong to the group of woman whereby i cant take betrayal... i will rather let "my husband" go than to do this... i feel that if u lost the love its forever, it will nt return to wat it used to be... perhaps im still young, still ignorant............................

买东西，吃东西，买东西，吃东西。。。吃吃喝喝一整天

meet up with fangyi to go shopping.. wan to buy a new bag, suitable for sch n shopping, mus be special (at least to me), gt style.. lol.. hard to find such a bag.

had suki sushi for lunch... din eat much cos the service is very lousy, serving so slow, fy n i "eat wind" can be full liao.. lol.. end up quite alot of plates din eat then kana wastage charge.. 1st time get charge for that, siao liao..

keep walking ard shopping malls to hunt for stuff... gt my foundation compact first... fy gt a nice Fion document bag... went to kinokuniya to buy magazines... then we had ice cream at Shaw house, its 90% fat free (wahaha)...



i had green apple & lychee.. nice










keep walking... next stop is Far East...

then i was at this particular shoe shop trying on shoes when millie called..

"Yoz.. results out leh......" exclaim millie

WTH!!! i thought it will b release on fri... nw im outside, happily shopping n receive such news... im totally nervous over my results, my heart sank man.. no mood to get things liao...

rush over to nee ann city's national library to use the com there to check my results... thank god both fy n i pass the exams.. but we were nt happy over the results.. din do so well for this sem... but nvm at least i make it for a pass..lol

knowing that we had pass... we decide to go eat n so call celebrate...

had our dinner at Crystal Jade Kitchen... we had porridge, nthing fanciful...

i decide to haf some shopping therapy after dinner... went over Guess.. the bag i like is the last piece there, so i went over TSC to buy... a red bag.. yup, its red again my friends...



fy is holding the bag for me... its red.. floral somemore.. isn't nice n sweet?








anyway tis bag is within my "buying power"... ard $150

i saw a DKNY bag, very nice design, but too expensive, plus it dun "look" like that price, nt that worth it...



this is the DKNY bag.. original price is $600+, after discount $550+...








lastly, my dream bag... frm Burberry, $2800+... i will get it one day!!



the pic was taken by my hp cam so nt so clear but its very nice..










fruitful day for fy n i... =)

announcement

haha to all my friends... during tis june holidays if u need to look for me in the morning (anything/emergency), pls call my hp.. dun sms me cos i will be dead slping.. haha dun forget that ur friend here is a piglet... lol

wake up very late today.. ard 3+pm bah.. lol im princess piglet, a well-known one.. wahaha...

quickly wash up n went for my late lunch.. meeting eric at jurong point at 6.30pm, dun wan to be late... anyway i reach at 5.40pm so is still quite early.. decide to go play pool while waiting... time to train up if nt my skills will turn rusty.. lol.

anyway i play alone for abt only 10mins lo.. then this bunch of youngsters ard 16 to 17 yrs old bah come over to challenge me.. aiya is a grp of guys n gals, the guys wan show off to the gals lo.. so silly.. i decline in the 1st place cos my friend eric may reach anytime mah dun wan waste time with this youngsters...

then the gals actually block my way lo keep asking me to play... the real "ah lians"
lol so i play lo, they r looking for trouble themselves mah.. i said play 1 game then i go, then they dun wan say play 3 games see who wins.. playing punch mah so 3 games more chance for them to win lah.. ok nvm i say fine, thinking will win them in 2 games... lol today my shoots super acurate n smooth lo they are courting doom!!! haha today even gt 2 trick shot man!! jus imagine their faces looking so shock... i feel so shiok man... lol

anyway meet up eric to go find our friend for dinner... nice chat with them...

bought some donuts home for parents... i waited for 40mins for it leh, legs so numb.