after the 1st wk im finally used to the timing n stuff (heng i dun haf those 4 hrs break in between lessons.. if nt i will go crazy)... so im starting to do some reading now n then when im free at hm (there are alot of things lo.. time is nt enough).. some how i feel that i may nt be that competent enough to be a teacher but there is something in my character that keeps me going.. i dun wan to lose.. i may nt be the best but i jus dun wan to lose...
2 yrs back when i joined this course all my friends are so "envy" of me mayb partly due to me having "paid to study".. that period of time was the "honeymoon" period where i can slack a bit, plus the subjects taught are nt that tough (somewhat like in JCs chi lang class, jus that a bit more on other topics) so i can handle it.. exams can study at last min.. things like that.. but for now though i noe that i can "pass" since the sch wun really fail anyone, there is a feeling that my knowledge is nt that "deep".. now at Yr 3, the things taught are no longer that easy, moving towards the "professional" side (teachers' profession)... of cos im getting more pay, more friends are "envy" of me.. but im jus nt feeling rite... now i understand my teacher mdm goh's saying "要给学生一杯水，自己就得有一桶水。"... educating future generations will nt be an easy job...
something that i dun like happen yesterday (16 Jan).. somehow that person taught that i will nt take it to mind that she was late for nearly an hr (nt msg-ing me in advance for meeting late).. then when i say i took a cab her face is like she is nt happy lo.. im nt putting blame on her but dun she feel paiseh? still wan to show faces.. i dun wan to start a fight lo (thinking tat we still haf to face each other for quite a long time).. i dun wan to mention the name cos her friends or herself mayb reading my blog but i jus wan to find a way say out my feelings.. PS: u may noe who u r.. jus in case u gt read my blog dun need to come to say sorry or wat.. jus dun say anything i dun wan to start a fight...
well i can say im quite a bad temper person but somehow i have control alot.. or izzit that im becoming more "fake".. time really changes pple's character.. somehow pple will nt be that innocent like young children, pple learn to backstab others, learn to act in front of others..etc
im still myself for now.. but who noes wat will happen in future mayb i will turn wicked... some things pple do are for survival, especially in society, at work...
"要做到明哲保身，谈何容易。若要委屈求全，更是难上加难。似乎勾心斗角才是生存之道。现实往往是残酷的。"
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